I've had an interesting week, i hopped on a plane and visited beautiful friends in Melbourne. I played a show and had a meeting with my publishing company.I barely made any money but i didn't mind, the gifts i received on this trip meant more than money in my purse.
The Wesley Anne, photo by Oliver Happy. |
I also parted ways with my management team after over a year of working together. It was swift, it was sudden and it was clean. Sometimes people are in your life for a little while until you both agree that 'our work here is done.' I believe that i needed help in starting up my musical 'career' (Sometimes the word 'career' seems so annoying to me.) after such a long break where all i did was pat my son's head, nap and breastfeed. I'm pretty sure i did other things too but those are the things that stand out to me. Now i feel like it's time for me to take over things myself again, with more confidence and a belief in myself. I lost that. Anyway. Short story really, we had different ideas on who Sarah Humphreys is. Was. Whatever.
'I'm happy being me. '
'We're not happy with that.'
'I'm happy being me.'
END OF RELATIONSHIP.
SARAH LEFT FEELING SLIGHTLY BEWILDERED.
There are enough people in the world on YOUR wavelength to not bother with the people who aren't. There are enough people who like you, just as you are. You don't have to break, you don't even have to bend. You can just wish them well and go on your merry little way. You can have a little cry. You can have a big cry. Or you can just simply let go and swap your contacts list, fix up any outstanding bills and return to being you.
Off to The National Folk Festival in Canberra tomorrow, i should finish packing our woollens right now but i needed a morning to just drink tea and read your beautiful little writings. I have a bunged up nose so i think this decision is wise. A morning of rest. Meetings with ABC next week about when i'll be recording and releasing my next album. My second full length album. I'm more than a little bit excited and very ready.
So there you go. I'm happy being Sarah. I accept who she is, how she looks, how she is. It feels nice to say that. To all of you. (All seven of you.) ;)
x
I love this post.
ReplyDeleteIts a big accomplishment to be happy with who we are, It took me a lot longer to get to that point.
your music is wonderful .
Cant wait to hear your new album:)
Have fun in canberra xxx
Just today i am! Some days, not so much. But they are getting fewer and further between. It stings more when they come up now though... And i had a WONDERFUL time in Canberra. The audiences were AMAZING. x
DeleteFound your blog through another blogger's post. I loved reading this post of yours about happy being yourself. I particularly appreciate the lines where you said, that you don't have to break or bend, just wish them well and move on....
ReplyDeleteThere is truth in these lines, I have known from my experience.
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Have a nice day,
Thank you so much... it's so wonderful to know that those lines resonated with you - i know the feeling, i get it so often when i'm reading other people's inspiring blogs. i'll be sure to have a look at your's now too. xo
DeleteI love you as you are too Sarah!!
ReplyDeleteOh and i love you too Lizeylou, and your glasses! ;)
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post Sarah. Beautiful. We really could do with telling ourselves this a few times a day. Oh and big congrats on winning that very cool ride-on toy! Very pleased for your little boy.
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